Death, I am indebted to you

Death, Are you my foe or my friend?
Dare I tread on your territory?

Why take away those I love?
Take me instead.
Free me from this burden…
life

Death,
do I really know you?

Sometimes I yearn for you
And sometimes I fear you
I stand in awe of your power
Yet I am also afraid of it

I wish to be away from all this pain
To be alleviated from all these sufferings
To one day wake up
but alive no more

Sometimes, I dream
My hopes and aspirations strong
How can I fulfil all of them
If you take me away

Death,
do I confuse you?
I can’t seem to make up my mind

You come to free me
Only to find out that I have changed my mind

Eternal Sleep…

Death
I shall not forget
When you come to take me away
I will be in your debt

So take me now
Before I change my mind
I will aways be thankful
for your deed so kind

Death, I am indebted to you

©2005

Suicidal, with details…

Cut Curiosity, new experience
then stop
Problems
Can’t help it
blade marks etched on the skin
finding pleasure in self-pain

Cutting, deeper and deeper
Painful, unbearable
Ecstasy overwhelming it all
Sight of blood, invigorating

It hurts, inside and out
Each cut
a reminder of painful memories
Scarred forever

Cowardice?
A way to escape life and its harshness
Bear the pain
Momentary pain for
release from this evil world

It ends….
Curiosity killed the suicidal girl